Words Really Bother Me

Words really bother me. They can take on a life of their own.

I mean I have something I want to say, the right thing, you know? And sometimes it just comes out wrong or awkward. Especially when I want to convey something to someone I love, care about - I know, if you know me you are saying - "what, that's crazy - you've said some great, right, helpful, appropriate things to me, things I needed at that moment."
Maybe... good that is good.... but it is the times I fail to say that right thing, or freeze, or feel full of my own emotion over what the person has said and can't get the words out, or get scared of what the person will think... or I think - if I say that they will get mad and not speak to me.....
So if I say the wrong thing to you, please know it is not in my heart to do that. It is in my heart to bring everyone that is in my life joy and peace. That is what I really want to do.
So if I disappoint you, do me a favor and tell me. Cause the other thing I want to do is get better at this.

Once You've Looked In.... Look Out

Here we go another year... I know a boring beginning to an unknown blog. But come back again, join in and share your thoughts too.
Having experienced many decades of life, marrying, raising kids, a divorce and 4 careers I can look back and thankfully still look forward.
Dreams as yet unfulfilled but not stopping me in my tracks include - owning my own bread baking company, retiring to the mountains, creating beautiful stained glass windows.... contemporary and colorful, not pics of sea gulls and flowers thank you anyway.
Currently, as a woman of faith, I am praying for solutions and new doors to open... such as I never imagined. I have found that in matters of faith and prayer I only restrict myself if my "heart thoughts" are too narrow.
Hope you will come back, hope you may even subscribe... please don't be silent, because it is the conversation that makes life fun!